The worst feeling I've ever experienced was having trust issues. It wasn't just a minor inconvenience; it was a heavy burden that seemed to taint everything in my life. I couldn’t trust anything or anyone. This lack of trust didn’t just harm my relationships with others; it also caused me to lose out on myself.
Instead of growing and learning from life's experiences, I found myself stuck in a vicious cycle of doubt and fear. I was so afraid of getting hurt that I built walls around my heart, isolating myself from the world. Loving, caring, or even just being vulnerable felt like a risk I couldn't afford to take.
Every time someone showed even the slightest imperfection, I saw it as a glaring red flag. I didn’t give people the benefit of the doubt; instead, I assumed the worst. I was so focused on protecting myself from potential pain that I didn’t realize how much I was hurting myself in the process.
It wasn’t until much later that I understood how destructive this mindset was. By refusing to trust, I was hindering my own growth and holding myself back from becoming the best version of me. I was stuck in a place of fear, unable to move forward or experience the fullness of life.
Trust issues made me see the world through a lens of suspicion and doubt. But I’ve learned that healing starts when you allow yourself to be open, even if it means getting hurt sometimes. Perfection doesn’t exist, and expecting it from others is not only unfair but also unrealistic.
I’m still working on it, but I’ve come to realize that trust is essential—not just in others, but in myself. I need to trust my ability to handle whatever life throws my way, to believe that even if things don’t go perfectly, I’ll be okay. Letting go of my trust issues isn’t easy, but it’s a necessary step towards truly living and loving.
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